I will be ok

I think it all started after one of my pilates classes. Pam, who has turned into an amazing friend for me, and I started talking. I really do not like any of the instructors I have had here and really miss my old one.

She looks at me and says, "You sound really homesick".

I never thought I was, but I told her, yes I miss my dry cleaners, my parents, my alma mater, my cousins, my hair stylist...But all of that took me 23 years to build.

Lately my dreams have been images of my old office. Us playing practical jokes on each other and poking fun at one another. I would be lying if I said I missed it, but for some reason, I feel I am right where I am suppose to be.

And here is the best thing about all of this, him. I am not going to lie anymore to anyone. I am depressed about where I am career wise. Some days I am better than others, but I do have those days where I break down and just sob, like this past Friday. Luckily he was home and just held me.

You always watch those movies where the guy completely rescues the girl from where she is at in her life. I sit there in awe of how amazing that kind of love is and then it hit me, I am living it right now.


I know this deployment is going to be tough, but I am not too worried. Granted, I moved down to a completely different city less than 4 months ago where I did not know a single soul. I have a goals list that I will be publishing soon (because once you write it down, then the goals become real). It's about striving, not surving, right :)

I will be tested over and over again in the next 13 months. I say bring it on. I also know that come December 2009, I am going to be a different person. I think a better person and definitely a hell of a stronger person.

What Baby Wants...

He always says this to me and sometimes it just drives me crazy...Although.

It's funny because as 1 of 3 kids in a household where we lived paycheck to paycheck, being spoiled was not in the cards. I started babysitting at age 11 and began working in the "real world" at age 14.

But oh does he spoil me.

I fell in love with a house. Out of our price range for sure, but here I am sitting in the very house I wanted, but both thought was too expensive.

I have been eyeing a desk at the local furniture store. I am the queen of shopping around. I visited every website known to man and several other stores. Yesterday afternoon I sent him a text saying I knew which desk I wanted. Last night he walks in the door from work with a very heavy box in hand....My beautiful desk.

He got an electric start lawn mower that pushes itself for himself, but who are we kidding. He laughs hysterically when I try to start a regular lawn mower (stupid 5 foot nothing) by myself.

I have always, always wanted a husky since the day we met way back in 2000 and here she is, running around at my feet, lighting up every room she walks into.

He fixes the toilet, the pool, chases after the dogs when I just can't do it anymore, hung every single picture in our house exactly where I wanted, and still manages to love my very crazy self.

I guess he is right.

I hope I am doing this right...

So some pretty amazing people thought some pretty amazing things about my boring ol' blog.

I just wanted to say thanks to D.A.R. and Lacey. You girls are the best!



I am passing this award on to Aly at The Infertility Overachievers. Only because I have known her for forever and I know with all my heart she is going to make a wonderful mom.








I am going to pass the "I Love Your Blog" on to several girls. When I look back on the last few years of my life, it's funny to think that we have been communicating via blogs and live journal since 2004. We are all so different but oh so much in common.


I consider them as some of my best friends and most of all family. And when they go a week without updating, it's like I'm missing something in my life, ha :)


First of all, D.A.R. and MTM-to-be are some of the most courageous and intelligent girls I know. I'm very jealous of their post-college schooling. And their day to day life surving deployment helps me more than they know as I prepare for my first one in just 6 short weeks.

J.C. is hands down the strongest girl and I am oh so proud of her in everything she has done in her life. I know good things are coming her way.

Oh Erika, how much we have in common and how much I admire your career field. We will be in the same boat come December and know we will be there for each other.

And finally, Lacey Bean. One of the orginal WP girlfriends and one of the spunkiest and most fun girls ever. Her blog is so diverse in so many things and I always look forward to what she is going to blog about next.

So thank you girls. We have been through so much in the last 4 years and I know that I got through some things with a little more ease because of your insightful input.

Bad Day

I checked my old work website and found they finally replaced me.

It made my stomach turn and stung a little. I do not know why. I was the one who decided to leave even when they begged for me back...

I should brush it off and know I am better off in the long run, but for now, I am going to feel sorry for myself.

Puzzle Pieces Fitting Perfectly

Another year older...And what did I do yesterday?

Absolutely nothing and I absolutely loved every minute. He fed the dogs, took them out, brought me food, etc. We stayed in our PJs all morning/afternoon watching college football.

I guess this is what I adore about US. We are always on the same page about so many things. It was an ideal day for both of us.

Sometime in the course of the day between cracking jokes and yelling at the TV. He looks at me and says: "Thank goodness you are not normal, otherwise that would be so boring. You are like a 7 layer fruit cake"

Friday night, some other couples came over for Rock Band, pizza, drinks, and cake, my favorite. I find it amazing that some of these women I have known for less than 2 months all came bearing gifts. It was really touching.

Tonight will consist of rollerblading with the dogs and catching up on One Tree Hill Season Five. Yeah :)

Puppies

So I will admit, I have been chuckling along about the different items D.A.R.'s dog ate this week.

Unfortunately, I think my dog trumps your dog :)

I went into my bedroom last night to find my puppies sleeping peacefully. I reached for my birth control and noticed it was missing. I immediately yelled at Dave in the kitchen to help me find it.

Sure enough, nothing put plastic left underneath the bed. Daisy somehow managed to eat 3 weeks of pills.

And Dave's sense of humor always shines through:

(as Daisy is passed out on her back with her feet in the air)

Me: Do you think she will be ok?
D: Are you kidding? She is ready to work the neighborhood now. Look at her slutting it out already.
Me: David! I should probably call the vet.
D: Yeah, she is going to think you are one of those people (commenting on 2 visits already this week)

They really drive me insane somedays.

Domestic Diaster.

Now that David is in AA school, we are finally on a somewhat normal schedule, meaning he leaves in the morning and gets home in the evening. Unlike the days where he left at 2pm and would get home at 4am.

That being said, I am finally able to cook dinner.

Last night, I made English Muffin Pizzas. My mom use to make them when we were younger. David absolutely loved them. And they were so easy.

1 pack of english muffins
1 can of tomato sauce
1 package of pepporoni
1 package of mozz. cheese

And 10 minutes in the oven at 350 degrees. Way too easy. David reheated them in the microwave today and they still tasted delcious.

Tonight was on to his favorite, pulled pork. There is something about the crock pot that I love. Throw it in there, 4-8 hours later, done.

I felt successful this week in the kitchen until my once a week brownies I made tonight. I love the Pillsbury brownie mix. They are less than a $1 at Wal-Mart and I love mixing up chocolate chips, Heath bars, snickers bars, and peanut butter chips to change the pace.

Well I laid out all the ingredients and began mixing. The batter was so thick. Again, I make them at least once a week.

I FORGOT THE WATER!

It was in a dark measuring cup, so I thought I had already poured it. Luckily I caught this before placing them in the oven.

I messed up on the 3 ingredient brownies. Geesh!