Say No To The Dress

There is a wedding dress buzz in the blog world. Now shopping for my homecoming, turnabout, graduation, and prom dresses put me in tears, no doubt, every single time. I just grew so frustrated trying on a million dresses. People do not make dresses for a size 10 top and a size 2 bottom.

sidenote:: people say I am lucky, I disagree whole heartidly

Since I did not have a wedding, I do not have any pictures in wedding dresses. Well, I guess that is not entirely true, I totally forgot about these pictures until tonight. My mom, Super Jeni, and I headed to Nashville about three weeks ago to start this long journey of finding a dress.

Luckily Jeni snapped some pictures for me. These are just a few I said no to:

Good-bye dresess, better luck next time. My mom and I are actually leaning towards getting my dress made. We will see how that goes.

Bummer

I really try and not be that person who gets disappointed about the Army. My motto...If you do not expect much, you will not be let down. So over the years, "they" really haven't knocked me on my rear with much of anything. I go with the flow and nothing surprises me.

Well, he informed me last night during our conversation on the upcoming holidays that right after he gets back, he will need to pick up the aircraft out of state. The dates: December 17th-28th.

But Santa comes December 25th :(

My reaction.... I laughed. Nothing to do but wait and see.


Also, I do not know if we have any Bachelorette fans out there, but tonight is a sad night.

She did not pick Kiptyon or his gorgeous, washboard stomach.

Back to the Basics

This week and last week I feel I have gone back to the "basics" on a few things...

Him

The past week I have been working on a grocery list for him of his favorite beer, dinners, snacks, etc. And this might sound absurd for someone who supposedly knows him better than anyone, but I find myself trying a little too hard to remember what I use to buy for him.

My friend Leslie mentioned "everything" bagels the other day. I could not believe I forgot his FAVORITE breakfast. See I use to eat bagels all of the time, but stopped buying them once he left.

I hope more come to me in the next week.

My girls

If you follow me on FB, you noticed some of my updates reading "walking the girls" instead of rollerblading. While rollerblading tires them out super fast and we have rollerblading down to a science, they are acutally AWFUL walkers.

My poor mom. Whenever she puts them on the leash to walk, they think they are rollerblading and go darting down the driveway. This past week I rollerblade them in the morning and walk them in the evening. I have seen quite a bit of progress.

I also realized my forearms are ridiculously strong as when I rollerblade and walk my two 60+ puppies, I have no problem controling each of them.

Anyone have any tips to get your big dogs to stop pulling?

Studying/Career

I came to the realization a few months back, I needed to find a "portable" career. While looking ahead at our future, I realized we are going to move 3 times in just the next 5 years. Lovely for someone who wants a perfect sports business related job.

After talking with my parents, his parents, and of course him, I decided to go ahead and get my personal trainer's license and start up my own business. I am actually quite excited about it. I already picked a name, blog, website, and started on my business plan. My family always told me I should go into it since I constantly train them whenever I get a chance. I also have to thank P90X for so many things including new workouts and noticing results after a certain amount of time.

We decided for me to not try and find another job since we were so close to R&R and for me to spend my time studying. I also plan on subbing in the fall for some kind of additional income for this household.

I take the test August 3rd, just a few short days before he is suppose to arrive. I figure it would distract me and I really wanted it all said and done before he gets here.

I am a little nervous and was hesitant to post it on my blog. Afterall, you are suppose to take 3 months to study and I am knocking it out in 1.5 months. I just finished outlining the book and now will take this week to review. So here goes nothing!

Here it is.

I am finally coming out. And breaking down things I avoid talking about in this blog. After all its my blog, I come here to write about my thoughts. Sometimes I feel I need to leave certain things out because I was not forward with this information earlier.

August 6, 2000- Our first date. Dinner (Applebees) & a Movie (Coyote Ugly)

December 8, 2008- He looks at me in AT&T after receiving a phone call that they moved his D-Day moved up by 4 days and asks "So do you want to get married". I smiled and said "Why not"

December 9, 2008- We head to the County Clerk, just the two of us and probably in the most romantic, tear filled 20 minutes, we were married.

August 7, 2010- Our Wedding Date, 10 years + 1 day after our first date

We always talked about getting married before he left and it seemed like the right idea. We've been together for so long, living together, and we wanted to get married eventually.

Afterwards, while talking with our families, we wondered "Why even keep this a secret?". There is the whole "I want my wedding day to be special" and now I am getting to the point where I think it will STILL be special. I immediately told all of my good friends here since I did not want the awkward run in at the commisary or anywhere else on post. I love my life here since I can openly and proudly say "my husband". Its funny, to most people, we are not even engaged.

I did not have the big romantic proposal or the ring or the big ceremony. But to be perfectly honest, I do not care one single bit about any of that. I have a marriage, a wonderful marriage to my best friend, my soulmate and my hero. Its all I ever really wanted.

Its a secret I do not want to keep anymore and I do not where to go from here.

And I hate living a lie, especially a lie you are so proud of. A lie that fills your heart with so much joy and comforts you day in an day out while he's deployed. I guess I figured if I can come out to the blog world, I might feel a little relief.

I think I can now blog about wedding planning and refer to him, as my husband, because it sounds so good to say and even better to type.

Nesting

Super Jeni is now 8 months pregnant. These past few weeks I've headed over to her house to move the washer/dryer, lift/move the mattress, move boxes etc. She says she is going through a "nesting period".

So that is what they call it.

I know they say boys do not notice this stuff, but I am a clean freak. To the point where I am that person grabbing your plate before you finish eating just so I can rinse and stick it in the dishwasher. That being said, I cannot stop cleaning...like really cleaning.

In the past two weeks I have:

Swept and organized the garage and shed.
Took out everything in every cabinet and scrubbed in the inside
Took out everything in the refridgerator and scrubbed the inside
Cleaned behind the washer and dryer
Washed and dry cleaned all the curtains
Shampo the carpets

Will he notice? Oh absolutely not. Will I feel better? Absolutely.

I still need to clean out our bedroom. Daisy sleeps in there every night and even though I vacuum every single day, there is still a lot of dog hair.

I also need to show the girls how to share the bed. Dakota sleeps on his side, head on his pillow and everything, and Daisy sprawls out as wide as possible, legs in the air and everything, in the middle of the bed. We honestly have no room for daddy, but will need to make room pretty soon.

Internet

Oh how I missed you. It only took about ten total hours of phone time with the internet company, but two weeks later, you are back in my life.

There were a few points in the past week where I wanted to tempt the house gods and exchange the AC for internet, but I came to my senses and decided internet is a luxuary.

My girls caught kennel cough this weekend (think the dog version of the flu). They kept me up only 2 nights and are both nicely recovering after a $100 vet visit on Saturday morning.

Next order of business: Dish Network, Garage Door, and Cell Phone

Being a homeowner and dog owner times 2 might be one of the more challenging things I encountered in my short 25 year life. I told him that the house will still be standing when he gets home. It might be completely surrounded by duct tape with me and the girls holding on for dear life, but damn it...it will be standing.

We're rapidly approaching his R&R. My mom asked me today if I am getting excited. I had to quickly snap out of it and realize I will actually get to see him soon. I've been in denial for so long, living in our house for almost 7.5 months without him. I am pretty sure I forgot what it is like to live WITH him.

Happy Birthday Daisy!

Someone, somehow disconnected our internet for no reason. I need to call tomorrow and get to the bottom of it. I am beginning to learn its always something when being a homeowner. Katie and I decided to head out and find some wi-fi after a few days of no internet connection.

In brighter news, my parents visited this weekend. We accomplished so much. I have a laundry list of things I want to get done before he comes home for R&R. And we crossed quite a few things off the list. Not to mention the house is sparkling clean. Only 3.5 more weeks...

Also, this weekend we celebrated Daisy girl's birthday. My, how much she's grown in a year.

Yes, she's pretty close to being as tall as me. I am short.

A doggie ice cream sandwich! Do not worry. I bought one for Dakota too.